My Sweet Feet Nylablue the first week of your leaving has passed. I still reel in shock when I ‘realize’ you are truly gone now; no coming back in feline form. I keep sliding between anger (at your illnesses) & bargaining with God to bring you back. I have moments of calm & acceptance; brief moments & then something triggers the tears & I find my self drowning again….drowning in tears & in grief. Every Human Mum & Dad go thru this when they lose a beloved 4 legged; it is part of a Human’s nature. Some of us are more connected to our 4 leggeds than others. I was your “Big DiDi” & you my “Lil DiDi” (DiDi is Hindi for Sister). Even tho you called me Mum & I called you my ‘kitty girl’ we were equals who had seen alot in our pasts b4 we found each other. We supported each other & healed each other from past wrongs done to us. You learned to trust & I learned how to love again. What greater gifts are there than Trust & Unconditional Love?
I remember when you arrived June 5th, 2006…you were aloof yet curious. You had Chronic Cystitis & Peridontel Disease then & I had NO idea. Within a week we were at the vet’s & your ‘love affair’ with Dr Dave started. As we fought to get info from the people who had you & Aunti Renee & the Vet’s who refused to talk to Dr. Dave, we KNEW things would never be easy for us. Once we did find out what your problems were I went to your new ‘Dad’ & asked him to help with your Vet bills & he did. We got the Cystitis under control, altho it took 4 years to heal. Those early years we had many changes. We lost our home & had to come into Public Housing. Dad & I split up & did not see each other for almost 2 years. My health got worse. Yet we grew closer; each event meant to do just that. We looked to each other for comfort & reassurance. In March of 2009 you underwent dental surgery to remove your rotted teeth; the 11 that were left & you were SO brave. I remember after surgery being in the recovery room with you. You snuggled on the heat disc & covered in blankets & me on the stool with my arms protectively around you; praying for you to make it thru’. And you did! You thrived despite my uncertainty if I knew how to care for you. The recovery itself was long & arduous for both of us but it was oh so worth it!When you started to groom yourself again I knew we would be all right! And we were despite you contracting Feline Herpes Virus in 2010. Off we went to see Dr Dave again & as always he had meds at the ready. I learned about L-Lysine, herbal meds & Accupuncture for cats & it all worked! We cleared the Cystitis & we celebrated every victory!! Life was wonderful with you & even better when you were not struggling with one illness or another. We spent so many lovely days on the patio with you in your beloved Condo & the neighbors coming by you ‘held court’ like THE Queen you truly were!Time rolled on & each day we grew closer & closer. Yes we had 2 events where you got herbal med poisoning & then food poisoning but we got thru those times working as a team! You fought to live & our love grew even stronger.
You sure were DA BOMM my Sweet Feet! Everyone loved you so much. You found your voice when we moved to WP just over 2 years ago & we found a new family who accepted us just as we were! So many like minded people & such adorable 4 leggeds & your “boyfurendz”: Bacon the Pot Bellied Pig & Kuruk the Haiku writing Malamute & McDuff the Russian Blue from our Yahoo 360 days Marty the Manx & Austin Towers the Tuxie Boy. We made memories & you went on virtual adventures. You were given so many awards & I just completed that page for you today!! You once told me in the quiet of the nite you never thought you would know love & acceptance. I told you I would fight for you til your last breath & I kept that promise. Then another gift happened. It came in under the guise of Inflammatory Bowel Disease & it was treateable but I did not have the money to care for you properly. I prayed for help. And the “Guardian Angels” appeared to assist us financially & emotionally thru the past 18 1/2 months. Nylablue you gave me gift of yourself; all your love & trust & cattitude & hope. You made my world a much happier place & we shared our life together for 8 1/2 years. You know I tried to change my Gravatar name & that lasted 2 hours. I went back & tried over & over until it put my name back as “Nylabluesmum”. I will keep that username for the rest of my Life. You gave me the gift of being a Mum & I want to honour your memory always.As hard as it was to let you go & as difficult as the past week has been without you here I have felt you in my heart…I know you & Mingflower are watching over me & I know you are working on a new kitty love for me. I will grieve my loss & Summerland’s gain & I shall trust in the process…I will trust in you & Mingflower. And I will love both of you always & forever.
❤ Love your Mum Sherri-Ellen ❤