Hello everyone. Sherri-Ellen here. Well where do I start?? First let me say the outpouring of love & support has buoyed both Nylablue & I up in the past 24 hours. As you know she is now on ‘borrowed’ borrowed time…Nylablue is resting this morning:
Nylablue has struggled with Cystitis & Inflammatory Bowel Disease for many years & this past 2 years she has had so many challenges. This year has been the most difficult as the Bowel Disease kept rearing its ugly head & even with treatment Nylablue has been getting weaker & weaker…she has been throwing up more & more which was quite alarming…I was supposed to go away for Thanksgiving but could not go due to a fall…the Universe has a way of making sure things are balanced as Nylablue had a rough weekend & I am glad I was here with her. I took her to Dr. Dave yesterday afternoon armed with conditions I wanted her tested for & of course Dr. Dave was way ahead of me & had ruled out everything but the one I feared the most….We decided to do the full Senior blood panel altho I knew in my heart what it would reveal. Pancreatitis…with very little treatment option because Nylablue can not be syringed or pilled orally. So I was ready to put her to sleep but Dr. Dave said he had an idea that was working for his 14 yr old cat who has the same illnesses as Nylablue. So I let him give her a Pepcid injection to calm the stomach down & a Dexamethasone shot (steroid) & Nylablue took them without complaint. then Dr. Dave brought out the Cerenia (steroid) shot & Nylablue reacted badly to it because Cerenia stings harshly when going in. She fouhgt & i got so uspet too. His plan is that she has this series of injections twice a week & he would come to house on weekend & I would bring her in during week. Sounds simple doesn’t it?? Not simple seeing her hurting & hearing her cry out in anger & pain with the injections…When we returned home she ate some & slept on top of the kitchen cupboard….it was a very quiet evening. Once the pain subsided from all the needles she came down & cuddled with me….then she came to bed with me last nite (a sure sign she is unwell). Nylablue ate some tuna-tuna this morning. I can see she is tired; no make that WEARY…so very wearyd…my ‘Sweet Feet’ ‘Chubby Chicken’ (now only 8.8, lbs); my Chota DiDi (Little Sister) is too tired to fight….when I went into take a few pix she put her head up & then just laid it back down in total resignation….I have to be strong for Nylablue. Laughable as I wept for hours last nite. I spoke to my exfiance Jon & he was so sad too. His girlfriend does not understand our friendship & he wants to come in to be a support to me when it is Nylablue’s time but that is not likely to happen…so it will be just Mum with Dr. Dave & the Vet Tech….I have decided that when it is time to put her to sleep we will go to Clinic….it will be a bit easier. The thought of seeing her carried out of here is something I cannot bear…leaving the Clinic after she is gone will be a bit easier….
I am truly truly sorry to have to write all this…I wanted to do a light hearted blog but my heart is so heavy & the tears are streaming down my face as i type. Time is precious now..I want to spend as much time with Nylablue as I can…..I KNOW you all understand what I am feeling & thinking because ALL of you here have gone thru this yourselves & are the MOST Amazing people I have ever had the pleasure of knowing & becoming friends with…mere words cannot express my Gratitdue for the emotional & financial support you have provided & are still providing now….
I am going to let Dr. Dave come over this weekend & give her the injections & see how she responds to them. If she rallies we will try the Clinic vist next week followed by the 2nd weekend vist….however if she does not respond then I will take her to the Clinic & do what is right for Nylablue. It is about her now; not me!! I promised Nylablue I would take care of her no matter what & I have done that for 7+ years & I believe given her a good life. She has known LOVE & loyalty & devotion that she never experieinced before I rescued her…I vowed I would make up for the first 5 years of her life used as a Breeding Queen in a puppy/kitty mill & I have done this for my beloved girl. I know she does NOT want to leave me; I could see that in her eyes last night as she looked down at me from the cupboard. The LOVE in those turquoise eyes overwhelmed me…I will never forget that beautiful moment…the moment I knew how much Nylablue truly does love & trust me…..Creator blessed us both by bringing us together…may He bless us as we finish our journey together.
Thank you all for reading this post. I know many of you have lost beloved 4 leggeds this year also…we have walked this road together & I know without all of you Nylablue & I would not have made it this far. May the Creator as you know Him/Her/It bless each of you & all your 4 leggeds…